All along it wasn’t me, and yet round and round i went looking for answers but instead i was greeted with arrogance from gate keepers of society who didn’t understand what i was going through, silent suffering became the norm and in my journey to healing I discovered that the topic around mental health is a taboo especially in African societies where conservative ideologies thrive and our fragile society isn’t ready to emancipate itself from mental slavery.

Bipolar disorder is a mental health problem that mainly affects your mood. you’re likely to have episodes of Manic which means feeling high and Depression episodes which means feeling low. Bipolar refers to how a person mood can change between two different states of mania and depression. My journey with bipolar wasn’t and still is not an easy ride especially living in a toxic environment filled with so many triggers that can easily contribute to me falling of the wagon.

Because of toxic masculinity which runs deep in our African society most men are oblivious to their state of minds and yet there is a common denominator that links all of us and that is our minds are broken and until we accept this bitter truth history will keep repeating itself and the cure to our generational curses will just remain a dream, something we can see but cant touch. Most of our societal problems are rooted in men who refuse to accept they are not mental stable to lead our society.

Imagine a world where love is the way, then no child will ever develop any form of mental illness. When love is the way our minds stay clean and safe from harm, like an armour protecting the most fragile organ in our body. When love is the way we treat each other with respect and all forms of abuse become history. However i am not naive, i do recognize that we don’t live in a perfect society i must embrace the reality that evil does exist with us and the consequences of perpetuating bad deeds on to our neighbour’s will lead to broken minds.

Its easy to feel alone especially when you live in a city full of millions of beautiful people, however that reality is my daily nightmare. My fear is not misplaced, my mental health struggles are a painful reminder that some human beings cannot be trusted to protect your fragile state as they will take you’re weakness and weaponize it against you. Mental health is a serious topic that requires tactical navigation for a better living. I am a living proof that nothing can bring you down if you don’t allow it, battling any form of mental struggles is a declaration of war and it is fundamentally important to remember that it’s not enough to just survive something, you must thrive.